Religious delusions

Hi guys, I have a story to tell you.
For 4 days, I have had a hell of a time with my schizophrenic delusions.
I have been hallucinating about a actually been in a Jewish he'll called she'll.
I had the delusion that all my schizophrenia is just atonement and repentance.
So it started like this, I was sitting in my room and this young kid comes into my room acting like it was his, and then what I thought was the father came into my room and said my full name, and then for some reason I couldn't really hear what he said.
After he walked in and said my name portal opened in my closet and somebody had walked through it and it disappeared and then I heard him say your body had walked through it, but ur soul stayed.
But, the whole time it was the little boy's dream.
I was just dreaming it.
So I really don't know what's going on with me and I'm left with utter confusion.
But, some time before this in some delusion I had a matter of months ago, went like this,
My room was blown up and I died in it and so did my parents.
So Jesus comes in the room and I told him to stick his own dick up his ass because I was so angry about all my family being killed and myself.
So he told me after i said that, that my hell is not knowing.

So all in all, I'm utterly confused if I'm alive or not.

This is just a little bit of what I've been having delusions and hallucinations about.
I'm thinking my meds need to be changed because they don't seem to be working.

I have bad shakes, and I've totally lost interest in every thing I used to enjoy, and all I want to do now sleep.
I'm pretty sure I might be getting diabetes. My blood sugar was 161.
All I feel is tired all the time. And some reason I have a big lump on my foot that is starting to hurt when I walk. It's been there for a month or more and is not gotten better. So, I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow.

That's pretty much what I've been through for the long time that I did not post.

Bye guys, let me know your thoughts about what's going on with me and if you've gone through this with your schizophrenia.